Year 2010

It will be a brand new year, another step further in the journey of life, and another means of heavier pressure on the studies in a semester to come.Such a whiner eh ......

As for the year of 2010, I just hope things don't get out of hands.There were too much of changes happened in the year of 2009, don't want to bore you to death my friends ! *teehee

Just some pictures la okay. =)

2009
#1 21st Bday Celebration

The Course mates.

The house-madS =p

The secondary buddies. =)

#2 Ipod Shuffle as my sister's birthday present.



#3 Parents are back.



#3 Good buddies and you.


As for 2010 ....

#1: Wanted to get a new pair of good shades for myself, but it is kinda expensive. So, maybe I should drool over it, and get over it. *Ha-haa

#2 Have a getaway escapade to Singapore.

And yada-yada, the list continues ......

Anyhow, HAPPY 2010 my dear friends. See you around. =)

X'mas

Mr. Snowman (Must it be a Mr. ?)

Anyhow, I heart X'mas Season. =)
The joy, fun, warmth...

Well, it's what I feel at least. =p

Dear Santa, I don't want prezzie ...but...
I wish to gain more wisdom, I wish to grow wiser and wiser.
Can I ? *please ~ XD

Drench in the joy and have fun people !

xoxo

I Guess, It's A Sign

Up to recent, due to the Infectious A H1N1, most of the Gakkai Activities and my dance practices have been canceled. So, I am now being all worried about the built muscle from past practices will just turn into lumps of FATs, again. *shakes head

On the other hand, more time is allocated for my leisure activities: origami, comics, books, outings, movies......

Currently undergoing industrial training in a Pilot Plant company, something I have never thought I would dealt with: Programmable Logical Control.
Albeit I'm a chemical eng. student, but I'm ended up in an EE company. It's lucky that I have not chosen my major yet, while Process Control is one of the subjects for next semester's syllabus. ; )
I can't expect much, I just hope that everything will be just fine and I shall pull through the 3 months doubtlessly. And you guys out there, be all alert when you're working, especially for those in chemical plants. =)

The industrial training has given me doubled, tripled TROUBLES during the application process. Much of the hurdles, I finally got 3 offers by 29th of Sept, 2 days apart from the commencement of training. Got the feel of: Phew ~ right? Hehe. XD

I guess, it's a sign for me to buck up and get prepared to face challenges after my graduation.

Industrial training applications turned out pretty troublesome; I couldn't imagine the stress and tense that I'm gonna get when I have to hunt for a job in the near future.

My working hour isn't fix. IT IS a total sucks. =(

Year 3 Sem 1

Hola Pepos......

I have been disappeared for quite some time I know. Don't blame me alright, I have not much time left for rantings and complaining these days. =p

Parents are back, my family is back to "normal", in the sense that I get to see my parents once a week at least, no longer have to get fair priced air-ticket to see them. Its wonderful in a way. =)

Talking about parents flying back here from China, I've got the chance to visit Beijing just before everything in dad's house (Yang Zhou) is couriered back to Malaysia.
Just a quick update because I gotta run already.
Dear peeps, muh finals is just around the corner, the first paper falls on tomorrow. Pray hard that this semester's paper will not give me a heart attack.

Love,
Mintz.

我是我

如果我们对自己、别人、未来，有着太高的期望和预设，那么我们必须有心理准备，去接受事情不如预期般完美，必须学会承受失败的冲击。

我对自己有着非比寻常的要求，以为只要自己付出努力与热情，所有事物就能有如愿的回酬.

有人说：“顺应生命的旅程吧，所谓对事物的理想也只不过是个指标罢了。”

乍听之下，有些丧失了生命的斗志似的。

但是我想，抱着这样的心态未免是件坏事，因为这样至少可以避免一些不必要的失望，挽回少许的自信心。

我轻抚自己的良心，知道它依旧存在。

天生敏感又感性的我，对于许多事物都会感触良多。

我的家人、朋友、甚至视我为敌的人，时时刻刻都在影响我的情绪和思路。

心中的呐喊，自己可能再也没有办法应和。

「如何变得勇敢、变得坚强、变得自信……

如何成为一位我观我心，我走我路的人…

面对流言蜚语只需一笑置之、面对逆境就鼓起勇气挑战，不会有半点迟疑。」

不，我本来就拥有这样的特质，只是我在长达21年的岁月中所面对的事物已经将它们一一侵蚀……

如何呼唤它们再次回到我的内心世界才是关键所在。

在我好友的分析之下，提醒我“天时、地利、人和”所扮演的角色。

回头探了探，想了想…… 的确没错，有好多事物都发生在错误的时间。

太早碰上了所谓的际遇、所谓的挑战、所谓的爱情……

这也许是太年幼时碰到钉子的后果……

曾几何时，脑海里堆积了负面的想法，但还好，我还是清楚地回想起自己的人生目标，重新鼓起冲劲来面对真实的人生，因为我还有家人与朋友，我并不孤单。

你的陪伴，你的赞美……

为我加油打气、打了强心针的朋友、谢谢你们。

我，依旧是我。

Specially Dedicated to U.

I was not, pardon me, I am not good at expressing my love towards anyone at times, even to my family members.

It is not because I don't love them wholeheartedly, in fact, it can never be enough.

Father's Day is just around the corner, he's been...... a pillar to us for 21 years.
All this while, I had been taking things for granted, including the love he gave me.

I call him dad, pa, daddy, diii... and he calls me JieJie. =p
Practically this is the type of "conversation" between us.
I was very quiet when he chauffeured me to tuition and arts classes, I never had the initiative to talk to him.
I never had the intention to ask his permission regarding any matters, because I knew the answer would be: ask mommy's opinion.

Until......

During the period when he was working in china on his own, I missed him so much and honestly I was blaming myself all the time. I am sure I will be much appreciative to him after all the rocky days I have been through without him.

Here comes my dad.

This is my mom and dad.
One word: cute.

This is one of the most precious pictures ever.

Daddy and I.

People ! Love your papas while he is still with you !
xoxo

Exam

It's finals ... Don't stress out. If you do, watch this:

I'm hooked to hip-hop ? Not really. I just like to watch the movement and their body languages.
Enjoy.



By the way, all the best peeps !

想念

假洒脱，无可奈何。

回想过去，我才黯然发现妈妈替我们撑了大半个天。

除了想念，还是想念。
正在倒数可以见到父母亲的日子。

可是，拿起日历，算了算我在他们身边的的日子，顿时叹了口气，抱怨为什么如此短暂。
我又再想，到了离开的那一刻，我可以忍住泪水吗？

我不知道，也不敢想象。

R- Reunion Rocks !

Let me begin with a picture of:

The R-committee members. =)

It was a first and ever R-Reunion organized by Academy-R. It was held at Dusun Eco, Pahang on 21st and 22nd of February. It was and it is still a breakthrough, the best kick-off for the year 2009, for all of our members to march forward and to embrace stronger faith and determination in life, and create unbreakable bonds between seniors and juniors of Acad-R.

It was inevitably memorable, precious experience for me to be able to contribute in the preparation, and performance as well. I still remember vividly, how I tried to refuse the PIC of this event, simply because I don't have the confidence in performing. And of course, the transition period, I was not prepared, I did convinced myself with this lame excuse.

Performance ? Let the picture do the talking.

suppose-to-be angelic character.
some simple contemporary dance. =p

I was glad that I finally had the courage to dance. It's been ages since I last dance, since... standard 6 ? ;) I don't know why, maybe due to low self-esteem or something. But it's a past and I'm about to dance again.

The family of R.

I shall continue with the details regarding R-Reunion in the next post. Pictures are not organized yet and it's time for me to write articles for the R-Newsletter.
p/s: I don't wanna get slaughtered by the editor=p.

Some Updates ...

"Eww ... eww, Can you clear the spider-web around here? Have this blog gone rotten? Why don't you update your blog? I thought you've gone elsewhere, God knows where but its certainly a place without connection and bla bla bla ......"

Ok, my dear friends, I'd finally published a post to prove my existence.

Just a quick update, my parents flew to China for exactly one month. Yes, my parents. Mom left to China together with dad a week after CNY.

So I have loads of responsibilites despite of just being a full-timed student. I wasn't so sure about my mom's departure at this stage could do me good or not, but still, I know its the best solution yet for my family. = )

Mom and dad in ZhongShanLingYuan (NanJing)

For those who'd never met my parents, my dad actually shedded pounds after he left home for several months. It's unfair for my dad if he'd to stay there alone without mom by his side. As for me, although my mom is my best friend and the best counselor, the best cook, the best maid (with me as her best helper) and so on, I think I can pull it through.

I cried, when I saw families. I miss family outings. I certainly hope for an "impossible" miracle to have my family to celebrate my 21st Birthday. Transition period is what I'm facing, but it's just in the matter of time for me to adapt to new circumstances.

p/s: Lots of blessing and love to dad, mom and sis. I miss you'll very much. =)

Since You Been Gone

Dad. Me. Mom

Sis. Dad. Mom

Its been... almost 3 months.
Finally we get rid of our emotion over his departure.
Though sometimes I still cry, but not as often as previously.
Time to meet another dilemma soon I guess.
When dad settled down, is mom going over ?

I was acting all rough and tough to convince her to go.
Me: "Mom you can actually consider to stay with dad when he'd settle down......"
Sis: "Yeah mom, we can take good care of ourselves, sis will take care of me even if I don't!"
Me: "If you reluctant to go when theres chance, I'll definitely find a way to make you go to dad!"

Mom remained silent for most of the time.

I'm experiencing what I thought of. I mean sort of; I remember how much I yearned to be an adult, to study in university and all. But heck, I didn't know that someday dad will have to work in overseas for long term.

Thank God his place was not affected by Nature's Force.
Will be writing soon. Time to study.

Prophecy

I don't need the knowledge of divination to foresee my results of my second semester.
I tried my best to understand the syllabus yet, I think I over-estimated my cleverness and so.

Time for some ruefulness accounts, particularly of what had happened during the past few months.
This semester started with less of a bumpy and rocky scenario because I'd get along well with my surroundings, especially my house-mates. Much fills with joyous laughters all around when I went back Setapak Home from uni.

Holidays kept pouring in too-occasionally. Awal-Muharam, Thaipusam, Chinese New Year, Prophet Muhammad's Bday. Chinese New Year especially, self-claimed-holidays was what I did.

Until... my dad got an offer from a company in China in the midst of February.
He flew to China when I was having my study week.

Well, it was definitely difficult, for all of us.
I couldn't hold my tears for most of the time when I reminiscent about the days having dad beside me with all the care and convenience, and of course, my shoulders can be easily shrugged when I don't have much responsibility to bear.

Now, more than ever, I'm playing my dad's role, I mean most of em'. it's heavy, but think at the bright side, I'm glad that my parents trust me.

Results, seriously I didn't expect it to be "this" bad. But I'll make it straight.

信心 . 幸福

信心是奋战.
信心是为了获得绝对幸福而有的.

为了获得幸福 ---

要与 "邪恶" 奋战.
要与 "劳苦" 奋战.
要与 "惰性" 奋战.
要与 "魔" 奋战.
要与 "破坏佛法之敌" 奋战.
要与 "宿命" 奋战.

年轻的各位, 无须和他人比较, 要从表面上看 "今天的自己" 朝向 "明日的自己" 提升境界, 彻底坚强, 明朗的前进 !

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池田大作 著

After 50 Years of Independence

I have no intention in creating any form of offense, but I had not experience the joy and pride of being a Malaysian, until after the 12th General Election.
This is because I just saw a flash of light shine through the political regime; the tsunami that just swept off the BN --- hugely corrupt, incompetent and dictatorial regime from a few key states.

Now, democracy in Malaysia is awakening. This is what I've learned in the History of Malaysia at least; a democratic country.

The poll results is a shock to everyone of us, but for me, it's a pleasant shock. I have faith in the Barisan Rakyat, especially DAP. I am certain, Malaysian and Malaysia are going to have a better tomorrow.

20th Birthday

Thank yous for remembering my birthday. Those who msg-ed me via friendster and phone:

kenneth, ravern, vivian, sherril, tzyy shyuan, cheih ai, erik, hui wen, jia wei, iherng, elyn, fharyl, chi sern, tat wei, juen june, serene, elly and cousins.

Thank you for your wishes.

I guess it's due to the reason I will dash back to my home on Friday afternoon (once the holiday of election day is announced) , housemates gave me a BIG surprise when they stayed up till 12o'clock on Thursday night to celebrate my bday and somehow I don't know where they got the cake at this hour. *cake wasn't hidden in the house's refrigerator

My sister said I look like a small kid who will stick at the mirror/ window of a cake house with mouthful of saliva. *no I don't agree

Cutting the cake.

20 years old. Still studying and have not achieve anything big yet.
One more year for me to be eligible in voting. I wonder what will be the result today. I'm worried.

Till then, I need to listen to News already. More pictures later.

第十二届大选

我还没能忘记我在大马教育文凭的华文考卷中所选的作文题目.

风声雨声读书声, 声声入耳;
家事国事天下事, 事事关心.

马来西亚的第十二届大选显然近在咫尺, 身为大马公民的我绝对不应该对国家大事漠不关心. 毕竟这里是我土生土长的国家.

说到土生土长, 唯一让我觉得遗憾的,莫过于马来西亚从没有让我感到有一丝的归属感.
治安问题不曾改善,反而变本加厉. 无不让我的家人为我牵肠挂肚.
原因很简单, 因为我就居住在其中一个治安黑区--- 旺沙马朱, 文良港.

既然有关方面无法保护我们这一群弱小的子民, 那我们只好多求自保.

在朝的马来人的所做所为及在国会里为了强出风头的言行举止无不让我感到恶心及汗颜.
最深刻的, 当然是"月漏论" 啦. 因为在此依然可以回顾.

究竟何谓民主 ?

言论的自由被剥夺, 怎能有机会提出批评以对症下药呢 ?

教育政策与政治撤上不必要的关系, 可想而知, 我们的下一代会有什么样的后果 ?

施法不严厉, 通货膨胀, 又如何营造人间天堂 ?

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如你已经可以投票, 好好利用你身为马来西亚公民的权利吧.

Choice

Can I not go back to Setapak yet.
It's not because I feel miserable due to the roommates and everything, but I JUST only came home, not even more than 20 hours.

This is me pouting, not willing to pack my stuff to get my ass back there.

As if I have any choice. *rolled my eyes

Have to do what needs to be done in the end though. Have mission to accomplish: Make my parents feel proud of me.

I found it. If you get what I meant.

Chemical Engineering

Felt intimidated indeed. Never had such a bad feelings towards myself.

Majoring in Chemical Engineering, but I just realized that I don't even know the most basic principle and concept of moles, mole fraction and mole percentage.

Went through a presentation, few tests and I started to question myself whether I have the potential or eligibility to be an engineer.
Fellow lecturers often mentioned this sentence:

" You guys SHOULD know how to solve this problem, it's just common sense !"

As if my heart is pierced through with millions of arrows, awe-strucked by this. Does it mean that I am lack of common sense as well,besides being a pudding head ?

Introduction to Chemical Engineering Presentation - 29th February 2008.

What am I gonna do ? There's no turning back, no, I can't look back. Heavy steps but I still have to hang on, especially when I see everyone else does so.

Got to find the courage and motivation.

Till I write again.

I'm Back

Hola people! I'm sorry for the long lost. Gomenasai!
I know I know, the last update was like almost half year ago ? But anyway, I'm here right now, it doesn't make any difference due to the delay right ? *teehee

Well, i did make full use of 3 months of 1st semester's break, (full use means earning :$ka ching$ =p). On another note, I learn more about pharmaceutical engineering which is actually a branch out of chemical engineering during the holiday. It's probably much valuable than the salary though. = )

Although time passes, flies, I'm still the same old me. Except that I'd changed my hairstyle, and I look exactly like the picture on your right panel since new year.

That's all for now, have to get ready for house warming dinner now. Chao.

Port Dickson

14th and 15th of October marked our academy R's entry into a new stage of improvement within the organizing committee and most importantly the empowerment of our faith in Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism. It was a marvelous trip, it is the only word that could be used to describe it.

I was one of the committee members and process of organizing this trip is not easy. This trip was not the first attempt of our committee members, we struggled and fought for our rights to organize a trip within our academy with purpose to strengthen the bonds between our young and youthful members of student division. However, so much that we have done, yet it does not suffice to convince the leaders above us to allow us for any trip. Mainly because they do not want to bear the responsibilities of our actions and the name of SGM to bear on any unwanted accidents.

Well, we, the committee members like us just couldn't get rid of our stubbornness in organizing a trip. We just wanted a trip so badly. So we prayed to Gohonzon in the approval and pray for several aims:

- The trip must be approved.
- The trip must be a great success, good weather and no accidents is allowed.
- The trip must be able to create and strengthen the bonds within us.

I have not done much about it but I am glad and gleeful to say that, I finally see the hope of academy R. Everything went perfectly well and even the weather was in favor of us.

During the trip, we played a game of "The Master and Angel". It was such a coincidence that I was a angel of a PIC named Kelvin and I had a angel with a name of Kelvin as well, who was also one of the PICs. Which means, I have shown apparent caring towards one of the Kelvins and another Kelvin had taken good care of me. So funny aight ?! = )

Due to some emergency matters, I was one of the drivers, only girl who drove. I knew it like few hours before the departure, gila sial can! I wasn't driving my own car neither, was stressful yet uncomfortable. But for the sake of the success of this trip, it was all worth.

Love you people. May the force be with everyone of us to strive for a better tomorrow. The past is not important anyway, everyone has a different version of it, stay strong buddies !