想念

假洒脱，无可奈何。

回想过去，我才黯然发现妈妈替我们撑了大半个天。

除了想念，还是想念。
正在倒数可以见到父母亲的日子。

可是，拿起日历，算了算我在他们身边的的日子，顿时叹了口气，抱怨为什么如此短暂。
我又再想，到了离开的那一刻，我可以忍住泪水吗？

我不知道，也不敢想象。

R- Reunion Rocks !

Let me begin with a picture of:

The R-committee members. =)

It was a first and ever R-Reunion organized by Academy-R. It was held at Dusun Eco, Pahang on 21st and 22nd of February. It was and it is still a breakthrough, the best kick-off for the year 2009, for all of our members to march forward and to embrace stronger faith and determination in life, and create unbreakable bonds between seniors and juniors of Acad-R.

It was inevitably memorable, precious experience for me to be able to contribute in the preparation, and performance as well. I still remember vividly, how I tried to refuse the PIC of this event, simply because I don't have the confidence in performing. And of course, the transition period, I was not prepared, I did convinced myself with this lame excuse.

Performance ? Let the picture do the talking.

suppose-to-be angelic character.
some simple contemporary dance. =p

I was glad that I finally had the courage to dance. It's been ages since I last dance, since... standard 6 ? ;) I don't know why, maybe due to low self-esteem or something. But it's a past and I'm about to dance again.

The family of R.

I shall continue with the details regarding R-Reunion in the next post. Pictures are not organized yet and it's time for me to write articles for the R-Newsletter.
p/s: I don't wanna get slaughtered by the editor=p.

Some Updates ...

"Eww ... eww, Can you clear the spider-web around here? Have this blog gone rotten? Why don't you update your blog? I thought you've gone elsewhere, God knows where but its certainly a place without connection and bla bla bla ......"

Ok, my dear friends, I'd finally published a post to prove my existence.

Just a quick update, my parents flew to China for exactly one month. Yes, my parents. Mom left to China together with dad a week after CNY.

So I have loads of responsibilites despite of just being a full-timed student. I wasn't so sure about my mom's departure at this stage could do me good or not, but still, I know its the best solution yet for my family. = )

Mom and dad in ZhongShanLingYuan (NanJing)

For those who'd never met my parents, my dad actually shedded pounds after he left home for several months. It's unfair for my dad if he'd to stay there alone without mom by his side. As for me, although my mom is my best friend and the best counselor, the best cook, the best maid (with me as her best helper) and so on, I think I can pull it through.

I cried, when I saw families. I miss family outings. I certainly hope for an "impossible" miracle to have my family to celebrate my 21st Birthday. Transition period is what I'm facing, but it's just in the matter of time for me to adapt to new circumstances.

p/s: Lots of blessing and love to dad, mom and sis. I miss you'll very much. =)

Since You Been Gone

Dad. Me. Mom

Sis. Dad. Mom

Its been... almost 3 months.
Finally we get rid of our emotion over his departure.
Though sometimes I still cry, but not as often as previously.
Time to meet another dilemma soon I guess.
When dad settled down, is mom going over ?

I was acting all rough and tough to convince her to go.
Me: "Mom you can actually consider to stay with dad when he'd settle down......"
Sis: "Yeah mom, we can take good care of ourselves, sis will take care of me even if I don't!"
Me: "If you reluctant to go when theres chance, I'll definitely find a way to make you go to dad!"

Mom remained silent for most of the time.

I'm experiencing what I thought of. I mean sort of; I remember how much I yearned to be an adult, to study in university and all. But heck, I didn't know that someday dad will have to work in overseas for long term.

Thank God his place was not affected by Nature's Force.
Will be writing soon. Time to study.

Prophecy

I don't need the knowledge of divination to foresee my results of my second semester.
I tried my best to understand the syllabus yet, I think I over-estimated my cleverness and so.

Time for some ruefulness accounts, particularly of what had happened during the past few months.
This semester started with less of a bumpy and rocky scenario because I'd get along well with my surroundings, especially my house-mates. Much fills with joyous laughters all around when I went back Setapak Home from uni.

Holidays kept pouring in too-occasionally. Awal-Muharam, Thaipusam, Chinese New Year, Prophet Muhammad's Bday. Chinese New Year especially, self-claimed-holidays was what I did.

Until... my dad got an offer from a company in China in the midst of February.
He flew to China when I was having my study week.

Well, it was definitely difficult, for all of us.
I couldn't hold my tears for most of the time when I reminiscent about the days having dad beside me with all the care and convenience, and of course, my shoulders can be easily shrugged when I don't have much responsibility to bear.

Now, more than ever, I'm playing my dad's role, I mean most of em'. it's heavy, but think at the bright side, I'm glad that my parents trust me.

Results, seriously I didn't expect it to be "this" bad. But I'll make it straight.