Since You Been Gone

Dad. Me. Mom

Sis. Dad. Mom

Its been... almost 3 months.
Finally we get rid of our emotion over his departure.
Though sometimes I still cry, but not as often as previously.
Time to meet another dilemma soon I guess.
When dad settled down, is mom going over ?

I was acting all rough and tough to convince her to go.
Me: "Mom you can actually consider to stay with dad when he'd settle down......"
Sis: "Yeah mom, we can take good care of ourselves, sis will take care of me even if I don't!"
Me: "If you reluctant to go when theres chance, I'll definitely find a way to make you go to dad!"

Mom remained silent for most of the time.

I'm experiencing what I thought of. I mean sort of; I remember how much I yearned to be an adult, to study in university and all. But heck, I didn't know that someday dad will have to work in overseas for long term.

Thank God his place was not affected by Nature's Force.
Will be writing soon. Time to study.

Prophecy

I don't need the knowledge of divination to foresee my results of my second semester.
I tried my best to understand the syllabus yet, I think I over-estimated my cleverness and so.

Time for some ruefulness accounts, particularly of what had happened during the past few months.
This semester started with less of a bumpy and rocky scenario because I'd get along well with my surroundings, especially my house-mates. Much fills with joyous laughters all around when I went back Setapak Home from uni.

Holidays kept pouring in too-occasionally. Awal-Muharam, Thaipusam, Chinese New Year, Prophet Muhammad's Bday. Chinese New Year especially, self-claimed-holidays was what I did.

Until... my dad got an offer from a company in China in the midst of February.
He flew to China when I was having my study week.

Well, it was definitely difficult, for all of us.
I couldn't hold my tears for most of the time when I reminiscent about the days having dad beside me with all the care and convenience, and of course, my shoulders can be easily shrugged when I don't have much responsibility to bear.

Now, more than ever, I'm playing my dad's role, I mean most of em'. it's heavy, but think at the bright side, I'm glad that my parents trust me.

Results, seriously I didn't expect it to be "this" bad. But I'll make it straight.

信心 . 幸福

信心是奋战.
信心是为了获得绝对幸福而有的.

为了获得幸福 ---

要与 "邪恶" 奋战.
要与 "劳苦" 奋战.
要与 "惰性" 奋战.
要与 "魔" 奋战.
要与 "破坏佛法之敌" 奋战.
要与 "宿命" 奋战.

年轻的各位, 无须和他人比较, 要从表面上看 "今天的自己" 朝向 "明日的自己" 提升境界, 彻底坚强, 明朗的前进 !

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池田大作 著

After 50 Years of Independence

I have no intention in creating any form of offense, but I had not experience the joy and pride of being a Malaysian, until after the 12th General Election.
This is because I just saw a flash of light shine through the political regime; the tsunami that just swept off the BN --- hugely corrupt, incompetent and dictatorial regime from a few key states.

Now, democracy in Malaysia is awakening. This is what I've learned in the History of Malaysia at least; a democratic country.

The poll results is a shock to everyone of us, but for me, it's a pleasant shock. I have faith in the Barisan Rakyat, especially DAP. I am certain, Malaysian and Malaysia are going to have a better tomorrow.

20th Birthday

Thank yous for remembering my birthday. Those who msg-ed me via friendster and phone:

kenneth, ravern, vivian, sherril, tzyy shyuan, cheih ai, erik, hui wen, jia wei, iherng, elyn, fharyl, chi sern, tat wei, juen june, serene, elly and cousins.

Thank you for your wishes.

I guess it's due to the reason I will dash back to my home on Friday afternoon (once the holiday of election day is announced) , housemates gave me a BIG surprise when they stayed up till 12o'clock on Thursday night to celebrate my bday and somehow I don't know where they got the cake at this hour. *cake wasn't hidden in the house's refrigerator

My sister said I look like a small kid who will stick at the mirror/ window of a cake house with mouthful of saliva. *no I don't agree

Cutting the cake.

20 years old. Still studying and have not achieve anything big yet.
One more year for me to be eligible in voting. I wonder what will be the result today. I'm worried.

Till then, I need to listen to News already. More pictures later.

第十二届大选

我还没能忘记我在大马教育文凭的华文考卷中所选的作文题目.

风声雨声读书声, 声声入耳;
家事国事天下事, 事事关心.

马来西亚的第十二届大选显然近在咫尺, 身为大马公民的我绝对不应该对国家大事漠不关心. 毕竟这里是我土生土长的国家.

说到土生土长, 唯一让我觉得遗憾的,莫过于马来西亚从没有让我感到有一丝的归属感.
治安问题不曾改善,反而变本加厉. 无不让我的家人为我牵肠挂肚.
原因很简单, 因为我就居住在其中一个治安黑区--- 旺沙马朱, 文良港.

既然有关方面无法保护我们这一群弱小的子民, 那我们只好多求自保.

在朝的马来人的所做所为及在国会里为了强出风头的言行举止无不让我感到恶心及汗颜.
最深刻的, 当然是"月漏论" 啦. 因为在此依然可以回顾.

究竟何谓民主 ?

言论的自由被剥夺, 怎能有机会提出批评以对症下药呢 ?

教育政策与政治撤上不必要的关系, 可想而知, 我们的下一代会有什么样的后果 ?

施法不严厉, 通货膨胀, 又如何营造人间天堂 ?

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如你已经可以投票, 好好利用你身为马来西亚公民的权利吧.

Choice

Can I not go back to Setapak yet.
It's not because I feel miserable due to the roommates and everything, but I JUST only came home, not even more than 20 hours.

This is me pouting, not willing to pack my stuff to get my ass back there.

As if I have any choice. *rolled my eyes

Have to do what needs to be done in the end though. Have mission to accomplish: Make my parents feel proud of me.

I found it. If you get what I meant.

Chemical Engineering

Felt intimidated indeed. Never had such a bad feelings towards myself.

Majoring in Chemical Engineering, but I just realized that I don't even know the most basic principle and concept of moles, mole fraction and mole percentage.

Went through a presentation, few tests and I started to question myself whether I have the potential or eligibility to be an engineer.
Fellow lecturers often mentioned this sentence:

" You guys SHOULD know how to solve this problem, it's just common sense !"

As if my heart is pierced through with millions of arrows, awe-strucked by this. Does it mean that I am lack of common sense as well,besides being a pudding head ?

Introduction to Chemical Engineering Presentation - 29th February 2008.

What am I gonna do ? There's no turning back, no, I can't look back. Heavy steps but I still have to hang on, especially when I see everyone else does so.

Got to find the courage and motivation.

Till I write again.

I'm Back

Hola people! I'm sorry for the long lost. Gomenasai!
I know I know, the last update was like almost half year ago ? But anyway, I'm here right now, it doesn't make any difference due to the delay right ? *teehee

Well, i did make full use of 3 months of 1st semester's break, (full use means earning :$ka ching$ =p). On another note, I learn more about pharmaceutical engineering which is actually a branch out of chemical engineering during the holiday. It's probably much valuable than the salary though. = )

Although time passes, flies, I'm still the same old me. Except that I'd changed my hairstyle, and I look exactly like the picture on your right panel since new year.

That's all for now, have to get ready for house warming dinner now. Chao.